Ok a nun, a cowgirl and a gypsy are walking down the street....
Kinda sounds like a corny joke doesnt it? Well thats kinda how I spent Halloween.
I carved (didnt finish it tho...) a pumpkin and I went trick or treating with my step sisters. First time in six years! I stopped going mostly because I had no one to go with and used 'getting too old' as an excuse. I know I'm too old now (dispite looking fairly younger than I really am) If I'd a known they go every year, I'd have gone too!

Oh well, I got a lot of goodies and about three king-sized candy bars! Just one thing tho. If you are going to hand out cough drops, atleast spring for brand-name ones. I got a couple in clear wrapper with "throat drops" written on it.

Also. Seasoned seaweed does not count but happily excepted. (Is my favorite )


Childish? yes. but far more fun than what I had planned.
(alone and the history channel...)

~ Hee hee I love Reeses PB cups....

Almost Halloween and I have yet to see any of my favorite movies come on TV.....
The Birds, Grudge... Havent heard anything about Ghost Hunters and there live-cam special.
Nothing!

Although.....

The Grinch came on for the second time today!
Could you believe that Christmas specials are starting now!? Isnt having the entire month of December AND November enough???

Ah the Renaissance Festival.... I go every year with my best friend and like tradition, we dress in full costume and spend saturday there from when it opens to when it ends. Because of some scheduling issues and my stuborness to have my full renfest dose, we went the rest of friday night and most of saturday till her school home-coming thing. I dont think I'll do renfest broken into two days again.

Friday night was a blast! It was almost how I'd picture heaven. A loud and hazy place with lots of lights and movement every which-way. I saw alot of my old friends from school I have not seen in ages! It was a regular high-school reunion! I saw this boy I've known scince starting out in 8th grade at the world's most disfuntional school.(I still think of it as home.~) He's always been nice to me but just never had much in common to really be together. Still, its nice to know, I'm not alone in dropping out and working twice a week. I just wish I knew what he really ment by asking if I had met anyone yet. "Are you still single?" Was that just a general question???

I'm getting off track. Renfest! Friday was AWSOME! jousting, staged violence nostalia of old friends and Pirate Mini-V with- I swere to god was THE Jack Sparrow--and Starbucks coffee !!!! (long story pics later) --Saturday......not so much..... Got off to a slow start but just fine, Had fun goofing off with my BFF saw jousting a second time and succeeded in my quest to find a large wide bladed sword to paint (a little side-project) under a hundred dollars. I found two real nice swords I was able to get. An intricate dragon katana- like sword and a large beautiful 'Macleod'. I call it 'The Scottsman'.

Well some where in the day, my friend's new stalker found us. yeah, they met the previous night and really hit it off. And well, I ended up the third wheel..... and later was ditched.
Well I guess you can say that-- I walked off when we met up again. it gets a little old exchanging sarcastic comments and verbal bashings between me and him after a while.

So I walked around alone. Sitting at the Prodigal's concert during 'Whiskey Asylum' looking at everyone else made it very painfully clear at how alone I was....

No use in crying over the lack of a significant other or just any other... Artists were not ment for love in my opinion, I dont know of any in history who had not died alone. Monet, Van Gough, Dali.... yeah.... Like I always do, I'll bottle it up and drown it in paint....

Art is a drug adiction in which there is no rehab for. It costs you financially, physically, mentally and spiritally.
I'm withdrawling badly at the moment. I hope for a relapse soon.....

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What the hell is wrong with me!? I cant finish anything anymore! I've been so depressed I thought of giving it up! But to do that I'd have to give up life. Art is all I know and all I'll ever be or have no matter how bad I may be at it or how much I somtimes despise it.

I WAS going to draw or paint somthing today and ended up breaking a plate and thrashing the entire house. I cleaned and reorganized the whole day. I moved everything around and threw away all my old artwork and whatever I was begrudgingly working on that led to my little break down. I dont feel any better but at least maybe I could find what I need easier and not be so smothered by the god awful crap I've drawn in the past.

These human customs seem strange to me..........

I went (more like dragged) to my step-sister's baby shower. Parties and socializing in general is very difficult for me as is. I dont do well around so many people especially when I dont know them-- and I didnt know anyone! I should have just brought a pen and some paper to draw, no one talked to me anyway .... You know it had to have been pretty damn boring if my sister and I were actually talking to each other! ((BTW- she just got a new account so welcome to DA sis (delayed )!))

I should have gone to the DMV and work on that driving test I really need to get done instead. I thought I'd only stay a little while and ended up staying the entire time. I cant be sure how but I was volunteered to help load up all the gifts and stuff after the party.


All I can say is that was boring and awkward as all hell!

Pregnant women scare me! Listening to all this talk, I've decided I'm NEVER having children!!!!!